leaving on a jet plane

....in the next couple hours...to the far away land. I've prepared myself so I hope I will survive....

Until next month!

********sigh**************
I have thousands of words in my thought, that I just can't spell it out.
I am doomed. Never thought I had to shed my tears again.
Still, at the end, I am questioning God's will. The whole mystery that I can't figure out. If this is what God wants, what can I say? Can I argue with God and try to change my destiny? Is this the way He is shaping my faith?

I am tired of this tangle life....everything always comes as a question without a single answer. But, does it matter to know the answer? If the fact has to be accepted, does it matter to know what the reason?

A peaceful mind, O Lord....that's all I ask for now....