Sunday, July 24, 2005

Another year had gone by

Meanings? Yap, it was my birthday about a few days ago. Not really a big day for me, or a big celebration. Birthday for me just an ordinary day, except that means I have a year older then. Hehe...It was something that I was looking forward when I was just a little girl: the birthday cake from my mum, the presents from my brother-sister-cousins....It was almost the time for the family to gather together.....
And as the time goes by, I left my big family behind. And then birthday was just among my friends...and another time has gone by, and now it just me and some of my good friends. That's good though, as I am not looking forward anymore for my birthday. Cause I know when my birthday comes, I will be a year older.

Not that I am afraid of becoming old, that is nature that I could not resist. But with one year older, I also lost one year. I mean, I still have so much things to do, and it feels that the time is becoming shorter and shorter. Everytime my birthday comes, I always question myself, what did I achieve? And unfortunatelly, I still have not done any big achievement yet...

And I can't stop my birthday not to come, I will just have to race with it. Race with the time, race with all the tasks in my life to be completed....

Or maybe one day on my birthday, I can say to the world that I have done a great thing. Maybe then, a birthday would not be a bitter sweet anymore....

We'll see...

Thursday, July 14, 2005

Waiting...(part 2)

Yes, I've been waiting sooooo long, and now it seems to be over soon.
Finally I can see the bright light at the end of a narrow street.

But I won't say a word yet, so I will just keep my happiness to myself (and my sister...^_^)

Thursday, July 07, 2005

A big fat liar...

Yeah...I screwed today, did a huge mistake...almost unfixable. Well, we fixed it anyway, and now I feel such a big fat liar, other than being a total idiot. How could I do such a terrible mistake?? And it was something that I shouldn't miss, but I did. I shouldn't still make such that stupid mistake...
It was only a little thing that went wrong, with such a great impact....

There's no room for me to make another mistake. Specially now that I am at the edge of the possibility of the good changes.
But I am such an total careless person....keep and keep making my mistake...

Oh please Lord, help me on this, would You? Help me for being more and more careful...please give me an ability to see through to eyes of And...please give me an ability to be able to put more focus....

Help me O Lord...

Monday, July 04, 2005

Here and now

One look in your eyes and there I see
Just what you mean to me
Here in my heart I believe
Your love is all I'll ever need
Holdin' you close through the night
I need you

I look in your eyes and there I see
What happiness really means
The love that we share makes life so sweet
Together we'll always be
This pledge of love feels so right
And, I need you

Here and now
I promise to love faithfully
You're all I need
Here and now
I vow to be one with thee
Your love is all I need

When I look in your eyes, there I'll see
All that a love should really be
And I need you more and more each day
Nothin' can take your love away
More than I dare to dream
I need you

Here and now
I promise to love faithfully
You're all I need
Here and now
I vow to be one with thee
Your love is all I need

Starting here, and I'm starting now
I believe, I believe in love, I believe
Starting here, I'm starting right here
Starting now, right now because I believe in your love
So I'm glad to take the vow

Here and now
I promise to love faithfully
You're all I need
Here and now
I vow to be one with thee
Your love is all I need

In a memory of Luther Vandross (1951-2005)

Sunday, July 03, 2005

Las Rosas

Hmm...got a suprise yesterday, a very nice surprise. Seems that he could read my mind (and my heart?)
Or what's the catch? I don't know then, maybe nothing. Except that it is really beyond his ordinary.

Mira esta las rosas, muy bonita...



零 - 柯有伦

零(战神主曲)柯有伦

从来不相信我的世界可以有多完美
痛苦 寂寞 还有一些疲惫
不允许找人随意进入我的零度空间
宁愿 孤独 懒的再去想谁

俩个人一起是否只是得到一种安慰
挣脱 过去 然后忘记一切
没想过有天我的结局忽然全部改变
谁会 抓住 我的无力双臂

怎么 会哭 (谁错谁对 为谁抱歉)
不会 再哭 (谁错谁对 为谁憔悴)

走入零度空间 等到一切分裂
就算爱的危险 我们一起面对
来不及的防备 没听过的誓言
要我怎么学会 多了爱的明天

走出零度空间 终于一切分裂
就算爱的很累 我却不会后悔
放下所有防备 一切都无所谓
逃出黑暗世界 开始新的明天
新的 明天 (新的 世界)


Always does not believe my world may have perfectly
The pain lonely also has some is exhausted
Does not allow to look for the person at will enters my zero degree space
Who lonely is rather lazy goes again thinks

Whether pairs individual together only is obtains one kind comforts
Works loose then forgets all
Has not thought has the day my result suddenly completely changes
Who can hold my incapable double arm

How can cry (who is wrong who to is sorry for whom)
(Who can't again cry is wrong who to is thin and pale for whom)

Walks into the zero degree space when all splits
Calculates loves the danger we together face
Without enough time the protection has not listened pledge
How wanted me many to learn tomorrow which loved

Goes out zero degree space finally all splits
Calculates likes being very tired I actually cannot regret
Lays down all guard againsts all is indifferent
Will escape the dark world starts new tomorrow
New tomorrow (new world)


Saturday, July 02, 2005

Master of Language

Have I told that I am taking Mandarin lesson (again!) now?. Well, yes, again. After back and forth. And hopefully I can keep it right now. I know, I know, my bad habit. Always eager to learn something new, but so many times I just stop in the middle. But actually, this is not really new. I have learned about it, though it was almost 10 years ago. Whoa!! What century was that??? I am truly become an ancient person now.

But this time, I really want to master my Mandarin language, and so far, not really hard. The system is different now because this is the first time I am learning the Pinyin system, but somehow I start to recall all my lesson from 10 years ago. And no character this time, so that helps too!!

So, after gave up my Spanish (si, si, yo no hablo espanol), so I think I am going to concentrate on this. Hmm...hopefully, cause I know myself too well. But my goal is to be mastered in 5 languages. And if Javanese does count, that will be 4 with my Mandarin. Next? Hmm...well, we'll see what next.
It will be a long way to be fluent in Mandarin now, so I'll decide later.

Cai yo!

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