Goodbye Merv...

Merv just died yesterday. And.....I did not really get bump for it. A little bit of disappointment, but I think I can handle it. So! I won't get any egg from her. Well, now I have to look for another chicken and put another hope on her. I'll cross my finger now.

Goodbye Merv....

Easter and egg, or Easter and bunny?? I am confused...

Yei!! I am making some progress on my blog! By myself! ^_^....silly me ^_^. But seriously, I am proud of myself. I know nothing about programming nor the simplest language. Even after the progress that I made from yesterday, I still know little things about it. You can ask me anything about fashion, what is the current style, or the progress about latest acquisition, but about program? Hell no.
So, I think I can be a little proud of myself now (well, actually, thanks a bunch to blogger system too) And don't worry, I am still learning, so you can expect to see some changes on my blog again ^_^

I watched "Evita" on last Saturday with my sister. And, not as I expected, I did not really like the show. I mean, it was not bad. But, not really catching. And definitely my heart still belongs with "Phantom of the Opera". If they come and play again, I will go and see the show again. Also, I am waiting for "Jesus Christ Superstar". Danggg....the last one was on late 2003, how come they have not coming back then??

I went home early today as I was not feeling well. Usually I could fight my germs, but this time I had to admit that I lost and had to go home and take a rest. Well, after taking almost 6 hours of nap, I feel much better now.

Holy Thursday. Starting today starts the ritual of my Easter.
Holy Thursday. Good Friday, Easter Vigil. And Easter Sunday. I remember when we brought 'passio' on Good Friday 3 years ago. That was a great experience for me with VA. The first, and sadly, the last. Huhuhu....I have a bad feeling already that I am going to feel verrryyyy sad this week. Oh well, once a cancer will always be so sentimentally cancer. This year will be the 3rd Easter. How time is really flying by. Someday I will stop counting and won't remember the numbers again....

Btw, I still don't know what is all about between Easter and egg, and bunny. So, Easter and egg, or Easter and bunny?? I am confused.....

Girls's night out

These are some pics of us when we went out together about last week. I had 3 glasses of drink, hmm....and kinda surprised me, I was ok. Cause I know usually my stomach is not very strong....so this time was really good for me. I felt 90% drunk, but Jane said (btw, thank for invited me, sista) I was still walking straight. Haha!
But Leah was not feeling well then <:(>

Girls..I think we have to go out again sometimes.....I really had a great times!











3/11

My chickens

I have two chickens.
One is State, and the other one is Merv.
I don't know whether they are going to hatch or not.
My special wish is for State.
I hope she will doing fine and give me a good egg.
Just one is enough, because it will be very important to me.
And about Merv, I really like her too...
But I won't think further about the egg that has not hatched yet.

An ode to Ndut

All of sudden I have this view inside my mind: the warmth of my home in the morning, when my mom cooked and I was just sitting inside the kitchen, nibbling while waited for the meals. Had a little chat with her....

Or when the seller of the many kind of foods passed by in front of my house, in the morning usually the veggie seller. Later in the afternoon, many more will pass: bakso, mie, soto mie, gado-gado. Also my favorite, siomay and gorengan. You will know everytime they pass, cause they always have such unique sound for each kind.

I just found the old picture of my dog. The one that I love so much until the last minute of his life, and even until now. The only dog that had an attitude. And I am trying to hold myself not to cry.

No matter how much I wanna go travel around the world, my flash of home always comes in and fill in my heart. A home will always be a home.

But I am afraid to go back. Going there will be an excitement, but flying back here will null the whole trip.

I miss you Ndut, really miss you so much....I know you are happy now in heaven, just hope you are not making any problem there....but I am sure He will give you an excuse. I can't bother you anymore, or put my feet under your body when you were sleeping on my bed.....I can't hold you anymore, or hug you with your soft white fur....I really miss you....and always will...

A simple prayer

I've been disappointed lately. And it's so strange, cause in a sec, I felt I was up high of a happiness. The topic, ah...yes...man. If men think that it is hard to understand women, and so vice versa. No wonder men are from Mars and women are from Venus.
But I still don't get it. Sometimes I feel that he wants me to be by his side, and all of sudden, boom! Not even I walk behind him, but seems like our path are so much across in differences.
Well, to be honest, we barely have anything in common. But I feel so much comfort beside him. And just recently, I feel so much close with him. And I still remember very clearly what he said on his b'day dinner. And now?? Sigh....

Every time I want to walk away, he always comes back, and hold my way. But every time we are getting closer, he moves away....

Should I really walk out now? I tried to open my door for another opportunity, but, he always be the winner.

I don't know....I just don't know....lately I never really thought about this, as my mind was fully occupied with other things: family, career, school.....Now, in a second, I can stop and take a rest. And start thinking about the real relationship. And it's not fun thinking about it.....

And I still don't know what to do.....

"Oh Lord, if he is the one for me according to You, please make him stay by my side. If he is not the one, please make him goes a million miles away from me....and let me find my real red-thread, so I can complete my journey."

Roomie rommie

My roommate just moved out, and now I have a new one. This time, I have to say that I am glad that he moved out. Normally, I hate being in the situation for looking a roommate, but this time, the changing was smooth, and definitely I am happy that my old roommate moved out. Lately, I started dislike him. For one thing, he is gross!! He likes to cook a lot, and always spill everywhere without cleaning it up, And me, I can't just stand looking at those spills and do nothing. Nop, can't do that. I will have to end up cleaning it, with the grumpy face, of course.
Also, even though I know nothing about him, but looking that he doesn't have a job, and not even looking for it, I feel dishonor him. It's not because he doesn't have one, but because he doesn't even look for. I know he is still in the transition, and maybe he has the reason. I am not judging him, and have no right to do so, but still, looking him just cook everyday and play his guitar...hhrrfff.....

Anyway, my new roommate just moved in. And I like him! Well, too early to decide, but he looks like a clean person, maybe even cleaner than me. Haha! That's good. So I will have competition. And I think, being clean is contagious. It happened to me yesterday after I came home and took a shower, I looked at the kitchen, was so clean. And then I looked at my mirror inside my bedroom, hmm...looks like the fog in SF just came visited my mirror ^_^. Usually I will pass and will clean it during the weekend. But what happened yesterday night, I ended up cleaning the mirror. Well, just a small thing, but see, it is contagious.

Hey, and there will be a free pizza!! Yippee! Free bagel for breakfast and now will be free dinner....^_^

My concern is that I hope he will like it living with us now, he is not really get used with the noise....so, I'll cross my fingers now!